This post is coming very soon after my Nan passing away and I hope nobody finds that disrespectful, we have known for weeks and I wanted to post this whilst it was all fresh in my mind and doing it felt like it had meaning and was a way of dealing with the emotions going through my head.
Back in early September my wife and I had my Nan and her Husband over for cards, we had a lovely evening and it was great to see them getting on so well with my daughter (who absolutely loved the owl necklace my Nan was wearing "twit-twoo"). My Nan mentioned that night that she was feeling unwell and that she was booked in for some tests. Unfortunately before September had finished my Nan took a turn for the worse and had to be taken to hospital where tests and scans showed she had stage 4 pancreatic cancer, the cancer had spread to her liver. My Nan coped with the news really well and was brave and courageous in her battle to the end.
Sadly yesterday, not even the end of October, she passed away at 5:30pm, with her husband, son and daughter (my Mum) at her side. In a way it was good that she didn't have to suffer for too long but at the same time, from a selfish point of view, it would have been nice to have longer to get used to the idea and to have seen her a few more times. The cancer was very aggressive and the deterioration was very quick.
|A gummy snake like my Nan used to buy me.|
I have chosen to look back at some of the memories I have and show how often she was there with us.
I have many memories from my childhood involving my Nan. She used to come over during the summer holidays to look after me, my brother and sister, we would always meet her in town and she would often take us in Woolworths. We were allowed to get a few sweets and I would always go for the giant jelly marshmallow snakes and if I am honest I still have a taste for them to this day even if it because of the memories as much as my sweet tooth. In fact today I went to out and got one of these for me and one for my daughter (pictured on the left) and I still enjoy them :-)
A few years ago now, probably more like 13 or so in fact my Mum, Dad, brother, sister and I all went on holiday together with Nan and Richard to Portugal. We all stayed in a really nice Villa and although I can't remember exact details I do remember having a great holiday. I remember their bedroom got invaded by ants and someone driving along too fast on the back roads and playing loads of games and having lots of fun.
I know that things in life change and this year at Christmas there will definitely be something missing but we will make sure that we try to enjoy the day in the same way as we would when she was here. Reliving old memories puts a smile on my face but thinking of all the future memories that are going to be missed is much harder to think about...
Thank you for the memories you really will be missed.